60 days until 60 years

60 days..
it's not a long time, neither short..
There's a love, fight, forgive, learn, and hope..

Actually I'm waiting, and hoping, that he will show his love to me. At the 1st time,, I'm full of expectation. Like in a movie,a romance.. a love story, but until now.. That's not what I get.
I'm still holding on... I won't give up... I ever wanted to give up, but he begged me to understand him. His position, his life which complicated.. I give him time,, but I never see his seriously.

But somehow. I try to look in other perspective. If he doesn't show his love until now, I will show what I have.. Moreover I don't wanna have any feeling that he should love me back. Because at that time when the faith not make us together... I want him understand how precious I am..


Allah,, everything that You gave to me.. I thank for it.
Everyone that You sent to me,, I respect them.
Someone that You arranged me to be with him for the rest of my life, I will love him, will respect him, and will give my best to serve him, just to get Your blessed.
To get closer to You, Allah.. The only one I come back, The only one I surrender to..


N!!

BUTTERFLY EFFECT

Have u ever heard about Butterfly Effect?

Butterfly effect is the sensitive dependence on initial conditions; where a small change at one place in a nonlinear system can result in large differences to a later state. The effect derives its name from the theoretical example of a hurricane's formation being contingent on whether or not a distant butterfly had flapped its wings several weeks before(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Butterfly_effect). The point is how a little thing can give a big effect of something else.

But, in my life.. butterfly is really give a big effect in my life.

The sky is blue, the wind blow my short hair. And there's a little girl looked up the sky, saw some clouds gathered shaped like sheep. But then the little girl surprised because there was butterfly perched in her nose. Tickling. And she wanted to touch it, but suddenly that beautiful creature fly over.. and left the little girl with a curiosity.

That little girl is me.

Since that moment I love butterfly. One of my habit was catching butterfly after school. I never came back home but chased that butterfly. And keep it in plastic, showed to my lovely mom. That habit was never stopped until I got sick, fever.. My mom was told me that I got fever because the butterfly was very angry with me. So funny right? But I believe it. Then I stopped to catch the butterfly. And I never play again after school.


My habit from never directly comeback to home after school is changed. I never go outside to play. I become a hommy girl. Not close with other friend, and spend my time with homework, and study.. I become smart girl, always be the 1st in class. And until now I have a great achievement.

Thats butterfly effect. That's the effect of butterfly in my life.. What's yours?

A WOMAN THE FORGOTTEN ANGEL

Have you ever looked deep inside of your mother's eye when she's look at you, when u're a little kid? She's look at u more than a lil kid, but like an angel from heaven. But She never realize that the truly angel is herself.

In this world, the angel is not always be something precious like in heaven.. A woman in real world not always get a good respectful, treatment. And more over woman is often become a victim of the rudeness. Some people think woman is a weak creature because all they can do is cry.

Now imagine, all of us born from a woman. As great as people is come from a woman. When someone get their succeed, who behind them? A mother or father? Even though some people dont have mother because her mother passed away when gave birth.. I believe the pray of mother is heard by God.

Some case, a husband is underestimate a wife position. Sometimes man forget who is taking care the children, the house, the finance? Yea, a man probably can do that.. But as I know when a man lost a woman.. They will look for a new one. But when a woman lost a man, she will survive, keep her last love, and the love that still left (the children).

Man.. please think about it.. Woman, created from the ribs of a man, not from head nor feet.. woman is be by ur side.. Dont ever think that woman couldn't find another better man, moreover woman can stand survive by herself..

Woman may fragile, woman has a big heart, that's why woman is cry all the times.. because woman often get hurt than man.. U know period time? that's hurt, give birth? that's hurt.. Woman still can stand that,, But don't hurt woman's heart. No one can stand that.. Even A MAN.

We are a Pieces..

Here I go again..
With another question of LIFE. Uhm,, i know some people might be think that life is complicated so they wont think about LIFE again.. Just let it flow.
BUT Please don't stop reading it.. I wont u regret bcoz u don't know what is the point of life until your last breath!

ALIVE, it's not because only heart is beating and still can take breath..

I really want to think about life and make it simple.

*** So what's the point of life then?
Life is something that we can't control. We can be happy, sad, disappointed, or proud, right?
This is my opinion.. 100% from what i feel and what i think. I'm not a master of life!!
But i just wanna share what's in my mind (cerebrum brain), in my heart (sonar plexus)..

The point of life is all about
HOW Allah is trying to show us about Allah power, Love, and Miracle.


that's the point. let me tell u more..


Have u ever been failed? and disappointed?

When we failed to reach our dreams or our goals, even we tried so hard, we gave our best, but then we failed.. Don't u realize it is something how Allah shows about Allah power. Let say, U may give your 99% efforts.. but is NOTHING when Allah wanted us to fail, even it's only 1% from Allah power. How powerless we are, right?
So let's, give our best, but don't forget to pray.
Maybe our 1% effort plus 1% of Allah wants us to be success that's enough to make us success lucky enough ( i like this ^^b )

But, what about if we already give our 99% efforts, and we pray much.. but Allah still want us to fail?
SO SAD... i know!!!

But, the happy news is Allah loves us

When we failed, we still have our parents who are still supporting us, our friends who are still here with us. They love us because Allah loves us.
Uhm,,Allah shows the loves with represented them.. let them to love us.
When we fail, we learn so much things. We have learned that we need to work hard to reach something, we will realize who are really love us, never let us to face this matter alone. And that's more precious than our dreams and our goals.

The last.. is the best part. Allah miracle..

Theres a life, Theres a hope.
Not everybody feel the miracle. Because not everybody have faith in miracle..
Miracle is out of logical. Do u think life is logic? Sorry to say i think life it's not as simple as 1+1=2. Also miracle.. it's very hard to explain!! (and I cant find a good word..!!! )
Uhm.. maybe miracle are THOUSANDS ways of Allah love us.. Thats it.

So why Allah is trying to show us about Allah power, love, and miracle??
Because we are only human..

* we have to realize that we are powerless
* Allah wants us to surrender by remembering Allah.
* Allah wants us to give our best, and learn from this life.
* never giving up, and hopping.,

Gutten Nacht... have a nice life, and good luck for our next journey never end

Loads of Love,
N!

Our Journey Life is Climb Up The Stairs To The SKY

THIS IS TICKLING OUR LIFE!
it's normal if we are suffering and then we are struggling for our life. We work it very hard. Even more we do anything to get what we want, not just life but precious life, precious things.. Am i right??

So my big question is "We work for this life, or Our life is for working??"

I'm not working for anyone,yet... But i write this for my self too.. to remind me that my life is already precious enough, as long as i can live, i have something to eat, i have home to stay, and around with everyone that i love..

Precious life is not all about we have a lot of precious things such Mercedes, huge apartment room with beautiful view when u open your window's, beautiful Hermes, Prada high heels, etc. But the other side u have to work it very hard, U dont have time to spend your time with your family, with someone that u love, morever u forget what's the 1st point of your life.

The 1st point of this life.. dont forget that someday all of us will die and meet with Allah, dont u want to see a beautiful paradise? theres a beautiful milky river, a lot of fruits, beautiful pearls, green and very peaceful place ever.. and thats for eternity.

2nd, in my opinion.. the point of life is to make everyone that we love happy. It's a true happiness, when u can see a happiness from some1 that u love.

3rd, maybe your dream.. Everybody have a dream. If u have dream to be a rich man, it's up to you.. But remember it's 3rd! if you get the 3rd but u are not losing the 1st and 2nd.. Thats very very very good.. But if u only get the 3rd, i feel sorry for you.

I had a story.. a beautiful girl, and she did anything to get a precious things in this life. From the record, all of her boyfriend are rich man. And then she married in her 17 years old with a prince. Small palace, but the prince is also rich. She got everything, high class life, beautiful dress, precious cars and things. But, not more than a year, the mom of the girl said that her little girl was been kidnap, forced to marry, and got abuse. Unlucky, the girl said that she was suffering, because her husband treat her very bad. She was hurt physically by the man. And the husband didnt allow her to meet her mom. That's what i heard from news. I dont know that news is true or not, because it came from the girl point of view. And of course from the man point of view, the man said that wasn't true.. He said the girls lie and robbed him..

I'm not gonna discuss which one is right.. But, is that life that we want?
try to accept the imperfect of perfect life, try to smile for a simple things..
Life will be beautiful, inshaallah =)

Good luck for our journey LIFE

DONT let go your DREAMS

I said that i dont worry about future!
But.. i'm wondering about future.. so why should i worry about future. Future is like mystery once again. Theres something that we need to realize is we are making a template of future!

Template of future.. we can make it with our dreams 1st. And then make a plan, do the plan like we are doing now!
Even more.. i never really have a plan. I just flow with this life. It makes that simpler. What we have to do is just give our best, do our best.. and we can get the best, If Allah will.

IF LIFE is getting harder.. dont make life changes u to be some1 that maybe u are not know what kind of person u are now.If life can change u to be wise and better person thats good.But dont lose ur heart, and ur mind.
LIFE is challenge but also never end to learn. Dont let go our dreams!

MYSTERY it doesnt mean MISERY

I've ever said that in this life maybe not everything has good explained. There's always a reason why that happen to u and me. But, how do we know is that the real reason? what God really want to tell? We are just trying to figure it out.. And we have a lot of point of view of it.

I'm not the master of life. I'm also a human who has weakness, who also try to get the sign, or try to learn and understand. Sometimes, i even never get the answer, feel clueless. But i don't want to waste my time just try or focus with one moment which is hard to understand. And something that we can't stand is always something bad or far away from our expectation, right?

The best learn to be a human being is surrender with the greatest power of Allah.*

MYSTERY is beautiful when it's still be a MYSTERY.
So why we still can't get the explained of it? YEA.. Maybe WE ARE NOT READY to hear that. So i think that moment is the right time for us to learn and accept what Allah already created map for our story life. Because i believe when we can accept everything what Allah decided to us, sad things, bad things, moreover happiness, and goodness Allah will accept (ridho) whatever kind that we have done.


*quote by CK smallville in modified